累

又回到了现实生活
两天的假期过到超级快
离开的心情总是那么的沉重
好想念跟家人无忧无虑慢悠悠的吃完饭
想念躺在你身边跟你聊天
跟朋友们有说有笑
只希望回去的时候时间可以过慢一点
让我好好的enjoy跟他们的日子_____

:')

不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心
不开心，不开心，不开心

我只想你陪陪我，陪我聊天，陪我走走，
不想呆在家胡思乱想。。。 可以吗？ (T_T) 

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

发泄完了，心情好点了～ o(^_^)o
明天，呵呵。。 真的明天离开了。。
I can do it! i can do it! i can do it!!!!!!!

今天的心情

爱哭的我始终改不了

我也不想哭的，是眼泪自己要流出来的啊啊啊啊

今天跟妈咪还有阿姨出去时，在车上阿姨就突然问起我新加坡的工作如何了

她应该是还没update到，所以就update一下她咯

然后她就跟妈咪聊天，我在驾车

边听她们聊，眼泪情不自禁又流了下来

阿姨只是问妈咪会不会不舍得啊，什么哥哥还可以比较放心啦，对我应该比较不放心

说因为平常我都比较黏妈咪的，比较嗲妈咪的，吃饭的时候都要跟妈咪一起坐的

听到这里鼻子酸酸，眼泪又流了出来，当然马上擦了不要给她们看到，应该没看到吧。。 

其实我真的不懂我为了什么哭，不舍？害怕？真的不懂。。。。 

已经尽量不去想了，可是一想起剩下几天而已，心里就会突然一阵刺痛了。。 

最近的眼睛，好累好累。。。 

" Hapii 1st Birthdaee B ♥"

我的她的宝贝儿子Eegene，当然也是我的宝贝啦～ 嘻嘻。。
Eegene宝贝他今天终于一岁啦*\(^o^)/**\(^o^)/*
时间过到好快哦～ 转眼间就一岁了
从刚出世的他，到现在已经要学走路的他
虽然他不是我儿子，可是那感觉真的很奇妙

我的Eegene B，希望你能健健康康平平安安的长大
老姨好想你呐，虽然我们不常见面
迟点更是难见到你了，真的很不舍得你啊
好想参与你的成长过程，不想错过任何你的趣事
你千万不要忘记了我哦～
不管怎样我还是有喂过你喝奶的 哈哈
我一有机会就会来探望你的，带你去玩（如果你妈咪允许），买很多很多玩具衣服给你的
你真的真的不要忘了我哦，到时如果你不要给我抱，我会很心痛的～ T_T
总之，最重要是你能健健康康，平平安安，快乐地长大 ～
muaksss~~ love u B
Happy 1st Birthdaeeeee ♥♥♥

有我挑眉的天分 哈哈哈

♥

I will b Fine !

Monday morning, i was given a number by my brother. He ask me to try ask the guy whether that the company is hiring ID onot. And my bro said that the company that im in now, doesnt related so much with ID, so ask me to try ask another company. So, i confuse and felt lost. Because i already persuade hard myself to take that job and now asking me to find another company?!! This news really put into very bad mood on that day, i think and think and think... Eventually that day i didn't ask.. Cz i don't know should i ask, should i try, i always consider alot before made some decision, and because of think too deep and details so therefore i always came out with negative thinking. Just considering should i try and ask, this already spend me whole day long on bed just for these stupid question. Because i was thinking what if they really hiring, what if they want me to interview, i should straight buy air ticket and just for interview? , or while i start work in Sg just look for a chance to interview? what if they want to hire me then how should i tell my boss.... and bla bla bla.. and i do some online research and felt that this company's project seems not bad and made me get more lost.  So all this silly question bothering me for the whole day long and i still can't came out with a decision. Tot wanna chat with frenss and asking opinion because i seriously hate and afraid to make decision, but well.. all my friends were so busy. Guess this mean i need to be more independent and should not always seek for help, no one can help u made decision except urself.

Till night i decided to sleep and not to think anymore. Everything leave to the next day. So next day, early in the morning my bro text me again and ask did i ask and how was it, wake me up from sleeping mode again and so, i start think again.. After a while, i get tired to think again so i just told my bro i dnt wan to ask, just try to work at his company first and if is really not suitable then just find again, while that time easier for me to interview and at least i wont regret in future because i've tried on that company and isn't shrink back without trying. I thought after told my bro this then i will feel release for not changing plan, but then my bro said at least try this one 1st, becase bla bla bla... so finally i get 'pek cek' and so i just whatsapp the guy and ask immediately without consider anymore, but i dono i should felt lucky or unlucky now, the guy said that his company actually not really a design firm as well, if i work there then i also will be doing drafting only which is not that easy. So ofcz i didnt take this job.. While i felt release again, that guy replied, said he can introduce me some design firm for me because he have some frens working in design firm, and will let me know by this week. Get frustrated again, this meaning i need made another decision within less than a week before i leave?????

GOD, i knew i beg u all the times. But can YOU guide me this time, which road i should choose. Am i on the right path now? Work at there will be the best escape for me?.. I know myself can't bear any stress or frustration, i know i just couldn't handle it and face it all alone there. By choosing work in Sg and under this company, i spend alot of time and determination only can persuade myself to have a try, to leave my friends and family while i know im not a independent person. I'm already enough suffering for making this decision. Is this the path that u want me to take, if it is, please don't gave me another decision making chance again. Although by this i might get better opportunities and working environment, but who knows. I really can't bear it anymore. If YOU put me into another decision making, i scare i will regret, i scare i will choose to stay. That time, i really don't know how to face my family and friends anymore, i don't want to get look down by them....

*****i know im complaining too much for my life, seems very immature, and yea i admit that. But im not complaining now, im just expressing my feelings.. Is so suffer to kept all this feelings in my heart.... Friends... any activities or plan can let me wreak out hardly and crazy playing with u all for at least a day, before i leave here? so at least i wont leave here with loneliness feeling
(*｀へ´*).. ******